Have an Out

Rabu, Desember 31, 2014
 No one can promise they'll never hurt you because at one time or another, it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spend together will be worth the pain in the end. The worst feeling in the world is knowing you've been used and lied to. Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I'm hurt. Angry because you disappointed me. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together. Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone. I don't know which is worse, being the one with the broken heart or being the person that breaks the hearts. It's not that we aren't meant to be together, I think that we're just not ready for forever. You always have an out.

An exit strategy to make sure you don't get hurt. You always walk always. You walk away before they can walk away from you.
Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have. There were reasons we met, reasons for the good times and reasons for the bad times, and most importantly a reason to end. We have more to learn, more to experience and more loving to do in this lifetime. Somehow I know we'll meet again, not quite sure where and not sure when, your in my heart so until then good-bye.
 Broken heart again. Another lesson learned. Better know your friends. Or you will get burned. This time it's over I'm keeping my heart, I'm gonna be strong and not fall apart... it'll get better, I'll no longer cry... in a couple of weeks I won't want to die, I won't want to go back. I'll be able to sleep, it won't hurt

so bad and it won't hurt so deep! I would like to thank you, for showing me a part of myself that I have never seen. Yeah we were young and dumb, but it still was fun and I guess these things just tend to fall apart and I hope you feel the same. Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow. we must fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision only clears after our eyes are washed away with tears.


2 komentar:

  1. Good. *Nulis panjang lebar, komentarnya cuma good doang, hahaha....

    Puyeng wulan, sudah mah ditambah krismon, harga bbm naik ditambah baca beginian. Bunuh saja aku

    BalasHapus
  2. Hahahaa iya mas :D

    golokk mana golok :D

    BalasHapus

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